The decisions to be made are pounding on the door, demanding an audience. Possibilities are endless, true enough, but making a choice is such a heavy burden. There is so very much riding on each choice.
The level of concentration required of me has me chewing the inside of my lower lip to shreds. A nervous habit I can’t break.
Some day, before too long, I will sleep through the night. I will listen to classical music again. I will eat a meal without indigestion. I will hear the phone ring without feeling sick.
In the meantime, I will stack rocks, one on top of another. I will focus on the balance, the beauty, the patience of the practice. I will imagine the rocks taking a yogic breath as they struggle to maintain their positions.
And when they fall, I will stack them again. And again. And again, ad infinitum. Until I am no longer needed as a rock stacker. Until I am needed elsewhere.
I can relate to this big time....
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